I never thought i was that fake.

Honestly, i never really did. But looking around i notice that everyone is so plain and very matter of fact, where
i just like to draw thing's out and make them so dramatic. I mean i know that i always have to be the centre of attention, and when im not i get really mad and usually storm off wondering what i could do next to attract the attention away from the current source of amusement, but i never noticed just how fake i am with the people around me, just to be noticed or liked. I can never wear casual clothing, because i want ATTENTION constantly. So instead of me wearing flats around to dinner parties and such, i wear stiletto heels and a mini. Now sitting here thinking about it makes me feel rather foolish. All the other girls around me can go to their family dinner party and just be themselves... no makeup, no heels, no dyed big hair, no false eyelashes. My mum has given up on asking me to go for a walk down to the beach with her now, as she knows that i would have to scamper off to my room and chuck my heels on, along with my makeup and mini skirt. But in saying all of this, i don't want to change the way i am. I'm very extravagant, and i love it. All the kids around this area that i used to go school with, go to school and talk about me in class. They talk about how they wish they had the guts to dress the way i do, and how i do it with so much confidence. I have girls coming up and saying hi to me and i don't even know who they are! I got told the other day by someone who i used to go to school with, that the whole school is obsessed with me... now that just kinda freaks me out. I can feel the eyes on me when i walk down to the shops, and i kinda just take no notice and keep on walking, but with a feeling of unease, The place where i live is a very beachy type community. All the girls are very preppy and usually frown upon the alternative dressers, but apparently i got it right eh? I feel like the local celebrity or something. What i really love though is that the girls around here are starting to dress differently, thank god. This place had no style what so ever before i moved here from melbourne haha. Oh wow, i ended up writing about myself and how everyone admires me again! Im so full of myself... i was supposed to be writing about how fake i am, and i ended up just making myself look like a stuck up bitch, who is totally and utterly wrapped in no one and nothing but herself. Partly true. But i am me (duh) and i am a caring person as well as i am attention seeking. I love my friends,and they mean a shitload to me. I am a fun person, and i will always come out and party with you no matter what! If i have the flu, i will still haul my ass outta bed and come p-a-r-t-y with my bitches.

Smooches and hugs xoxo