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I never thought i was that fake.

nobody@vox.com(Miss_Makalah) — Wed, 25 Jul 2007 07:13:32 -0700

Honestly, i never really did. But looking around i notice that everyone is so plain and very matter of fact, where
i just like to draw thing's out and make them so dramatic. I mean i know that i always have to be the centre of attention, and when im not i get really mad and usually storm off wondering what i could do next to attract the attention away from the current source of amusement, but i never noticed just how fake i am with the people around me, just to be noticed or liked. I can never wear casual clothing, because i want ATTENTION constantly. So instead of me wearing flats around to dinner parties and such, i wear stiletto heels and a mini. Now sitting here thinking about it makes me feel rather foolish. All the other girls around me can go to their family dinner party and just be themselves... no makeup, no heels, no dyed big hair, no false eyelashes. My mum has given up on asking me to go for a walk down to the beach with her now, as she knows that i would have to scamper off to my room and chuck my heels on, along with my makeup and mini skirt. But in saying all of this, i don't want to change the way i am. I'm very extravagant, and i love it. All the kids around this area that i used to go school with, go to school and talk about me in class. They talk about how they wish they had the guts to dress the way i do, and how i do it with so much confidence. I have girls coming up and saying hi to me and i don't even know who they are! I got told the other day by someone who i used to go to school with, that the whole school is obsessed with me... now that just kinda freaks me out. I can feel the eyes on me when i walk down to the shops, and i kinda just take no notice and keep on walking, but with a feeling of unease, The place where i live is a very beachy type community. All the girls are very preppy and usually frown upon the alternative dressers, but apparently i got it right eh? I feel like the local celebrity or something. What i really love though is that the girls around here are starting to dress differently, thank god. This place had no style what so ever before i moved here from melbourne haha. Oh wow, i ended up writing about myself and how everyone admires me again! Im so full of myself... i was supposed to be writing about how fake i am, and i ended up just making myself look like a stuck up bitch, who is totally and utterly wrapped in no one and nothing but herself. Partly true. But i am me (duh) and i am a caring person as well as i am attention seeking. I love my friends,and they mean a shitload to me. I am a fun person, and i will always come out and party with you no matter what! If i have the flu, i will still haul my ass outta bed and come p-a-r-t-y with my bitches.

Smooches and hugs xoxo

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People who own at friendship... learn from themmm

nobody@vox.com(Miss_Makalah) — Wed, 25 Jul 2007 05:16:41 -0700

People who i have decided are GREAT

Little ben and Dal my bby <3

Chloeee

Delaney... my darling

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Spook yourself into not having a shower, why don't you?

nobody@vox.com(Miss_Makalah) — Wed, 25 Jul 2007 03:48:56 -0700

I am starting to really warm up to vox. At first i was like ' ugh, big deal! '
But yeah, it kinda is a big deal... me loves it now :]
I am sitting on my couch with my laptop on my lap, and sweating like f***!
I LIVE IN NEW ZEALAND! AND IT'S WINTER, IT SHOULD NOT BE THIS HOT!!
This whole winter has been completely screwed up. Lately it's been really hot, but we have
also had a series of tornadoes rip through the middle of the North Island. Damn global warming.
Okay, i nearly went into an anti-bush rant then. I managed to hold back though.
On a more freakier note... i have been researching Bloody Mary lately for no apparent reason really.
And all i can say on the matter is FUCKING SCARY BITCH!
I'm not one to believe in urban legends, but this is one that has been particularly scary to me since
i was a little kid. Google her name, and a number of stories come up on the people who have
actually dared to say her name. Those people are mainly just out to seek attention, thus writing
stupid, and totally obvious FAKE stories that make you laugh out loud ( lol )
But then there are some stories that make you actually stop and move away from all
mirrors you may be sitting near. I went to have a shower shortly after reading about Bloody Mary, and
found myself terrified of actually looking in the mirror the whole time i was showering. When i got out of the
shower i practically scooped up my clothes and ran out the door and into my bedroom. Oh boy, Oh boy i am
slightly patheticccc! I also read about a real killer videotape from... surprise, surprise JAPAN! Don't know
if i am ready to believe that one just yet though.

peace my bbyzz <33

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Rambling and Harry Potter

nobody@vox.com(Miss_Makalah) — Wed, 25 Jul 2007 03:18:35 -0700

Currently sitting here bored out of my skull thinking about nothing in particular.
God how i wish i could be bursting at the seams, with a story about how i met the guy
of my dreams last Friday night. But sadly nope. Oh well i did kind of meet someone i kind of
have a bit of a thing for now, last Friday... but it's hardly worth writing about, i don't really know
much about him and my feeling's are not very strong.

GODDDD! What can i write about??
Well i did finish Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows. I feel like i should of slowed
down on reading it though. I got it on the Saturday and finished it on the Monday.
Great book, although i feel like the ending could of been a little more thorough. Now i don't
know if it's just me, or does the way that J.K wrote the ending kind of leave it wide open for an
eighth book? I know, i know, she has said that she will not be writing another one, but that ending
kinda really does leave it wide opennnnnnnn. The fact she didn't really elaborate too much on how
the characters are getting on those nineteen years later, kinda isn't J.K's style. She always puts a lot of
detail into the Harry Potter books, and the ending had barely no detail what so ever! I am hoping that
she'll realize the world isn't ready to hear the end of Harry Potter, and pen another book =]

I am gonna love and leave you vox world. Buh-bii xo

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